cleave to them as unfitting them for the divine presence, than such as trust solely in the merits of Christ for their acceptance with God. The second thing I proposed to mention in the doctrine of Christ's mediation, which shows the purity of the divine nature, is our continued approach to God by him as an intercessor and advocate. It contributes to keep continually upon our minds, a sense of the divine holiness and purity, and of our own unworthiness, that we are not permitted to approach him but by the intercession of another. Such a conduct in human affairs, properly serves to show dignity and greatness on the one part, distance and unworthiness on the other. The same conduct then, in God towards us, doth it not convince us, that he must be sanctified of all them that draw near to him? And whilst it makes imputed righteousness the condition, plainly shows the necessity of inherent holiness, as a qualification in our approaches to his throne. Suppose an earthly prince were to be addressed by two different persons, one who thought he had a title upon his own merit to make an immediate application, and another who could not approach him without one nearly related to him, and in high favour at court to procure his admission, and to back his request; which of these would probably be most respectful to his sovereign, and most solicitous to avoid giving offence by his conduct? Surely the latter; and so it is always with the humble, mortified believer, who "counts all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus."* * Phil. iii. 8. THE MISSIONARY. My soul is not at rest. There comes a strange A dream of night, that tells me I am on Enchanted ground. Why live I here? The vows To play with shadows or pluck earthly flowers, "GO TEACH ALL NATIONS," from the eastern world And I will go. I may not longer doubt To give up friends and idol hopes, And every tie that binds my heart To thee, my country! Why should I regard Have had enough of bitter in my cup, To show that never was it His design Who placed me here, that I should live in ease, Or drink at pleasure's fountain. Henceforth, then, My earthly lot-bitter or sweet my cup; For the stern hour of strife. Let me but know To tread the dark and death-fraught wilderness. And when I come to stretch me for the last The cocoa's shade, or lift my dying eyes On softer bed. And if I should reach heaven- HYMN. My Saviour! while with raptured eye I see thee in the manger lie; With wonder, yet with love, I scan But when, throughout thy mortal race, Transcendent mercy! matchless love! Hell and the grave are vanquish'd now; H. E. Miscellaneous. ble that I should lose that sense of SKETCH OF THE LIFE OF REV. JACOB things which at such times I had; GREEN, A. M. (Continued from page 581.) I generally had great fervour and engagedness of soul when alone, and before God in secret prayer; and it sometimes seemed impossiVOL. IX. Ch. Adv. but when I come to be among people, I found myself bashful and reluctant to speak to others with any freedom; and when I did speak, it was from my judgment, and not from any present view or sense of divine things, such as I had in secret, 4 L This I am ready to think has been something peculiar in me, and what I cannot fully account for. Something of it has been remarkable with me through the whole of my life. I used, in those high times of religion while at college, to hear some persons, even young ones, speak with freedom and earnestness to others, but it always seemed strange to me-or rather strange that I could not do so too. I seemed to have as clear and strong views of things, when alone before God, as I ever heard others speak of; but when I came into company they were gone -yet so as that I retained the same rational view of them in my judgment. Similar to this was my difficulty in praying before others. When in secret, I could pray with the utmost freedom and enlargement, but when I came to pray before others, I quite lost that freedom. I was sinfully awed by my fellow creatures, and was afraid that I should not express myself well. Thus pride cramped me, so that before others I could not pray from feeling, but prayed from my judgment: and something of this kind has remained with me through life, and has been a great difficulty in my ministry. * Soon after the change I met with, as above related, I was advised to go out among people and exhort. Many others did so; some who never had been at college, and some of my fellow students did it. But though I was urged to it, and had many inclinations to comply, yet what I have just mentioned was one great reason of preventing it. I Could never break out into that freedom of praying and speaking, that I saw in some others who attempted it. I found indeed a remarkable desire for the good of others, soon after the shock I received from Mr. Tennent's preaching-found a strong, longing desire for the good of souls, and wished and prayed fervently for the conversion and salvation of others, and hoped that in time I should be properly qualified to preach. I met with my great change in the first year of my college life; and by the fourth and last year of my remaining in college, I came to be in a more even state. My ups and downs in religion were not so frequent, yet similar to what they had been. I also lost considerable of my fervour in a general way, though at times I had a great sense of divine things. In June, 1741, after I had been at college about a year, I began to keep a diary, and wrote every day for a long time. I wrote many things with little judgment, and like a raw and ignorant boy as I was. I wrote a great deal too much, so that in time I did but repeat many things which I had written before. For the sake of some things in this diary, I have not yet destroyed it; but I hope I shall, and design to do it before I die. Should any thing however prevent my destroying it, I hope those who come after me will do it; or at least keep it from the world-I write this July 16th, 1777.* It is believed that the subject of this memoir executed the purpose here inthe present writer has found no part of it timated, of destroying his college diary, as among his father's manuscripts. He, however, kept a diary with great exactness through the whole of his after-life, except when prevented by sickness. But he it to the world. For except a year or two needed to leave no caution against giving at the beginning of the part which remains, and a marginal part, which contains a monthly account of the weather for about forty years, the whole is writremembered he affirmed was nearly as ten in Weston's short-hand; which it is difficult to be acquired, as a new language. In this short-hand he has left the notes of almost all his weekly preparariod of his ministry. A few discourses tions for the pulpit, during the whole peonly appear in a hand generally legibleOne written with great care, is supposed to have been a part of his trials for licensure. Several manuscripts, not sermons, are not in short-hand characters, but writprepared for publication.-EDIT. ten out fairly. One appears to have been I used sometimes to think of my dream and the unpardonable sin; but I had at times such a clear strong view and sense of the infinite merit and satisfaction of Christ, and such freedom to venture and rely upon him, that I could not but hope and be persuaded there was forgiveness for me. I often found the need, yea, the absolute necessity, of the all-sufficiency, yea, infinity, of the merit and satisfaction of Christ, for my other sins: and whilst I had that sight and sense of things, I seemed to be satisfied that I had no sin but what might be forgiven. I studied too hard while I was at college-early and late, and sometimes all night, without a wink of sleep. I was very imprudent, and hurt myself, so that I could not ever after study as much as otherwise I might have done. I had nobody to advise or direct my studies, which was a great disadvantage. I did not allow myself proper exercise of body, nor was I then sensible of the need of it; for having a remarkably strong and firm constitution, I did not bring myself immediately into a bad state of health-I will here give a small specimen of the manner of spending my time at college. In my third year as a college student, and in the winter season, my chamber mate, (who was a studious person but not religious,) was reading a book-I think it was the Spectator-which proposed to persons to keep an exact account, for one week, of the way and manner of spending their time, from hour to hour. My Chum, (for so we called a chamber mate,) proposed to me that he and I should do so for a single week, and let each other see the account. For certain reasons I did not agree to his proposal, yet concluded with myself to keep such an account, without letting him or any body else know any thing of it. I did so, without the least thought that it would ever be seen by any mortal but myself; and hitherto no one has seen it; but I now transcribe it as a sort of curiosity for my children. There was nothing special in that week. I studied neither more nor less than common, nor altered in any particular because I kept the account. I began on Thursday and continued it a week, except that I did not think it proper to keep such an account on the Sabbath-it is as follows.*-Thursday. Waked a little after 6 o'clock, dressed me, made a fire, called Moody, [supposed to be the college servant,] read 2 chapters and 8 psalms, till 7 o'clock. Attended prayers in the college Hall, prayed in secret, and read part of a chapter in Hebrew, till 8 o'clock. Finished the chapter in Hebrew and breakfasted, till 9. Talked with a man about buying a load of wood, then read Mr. Ray's Consequences of the Deluge, till 10. Read the same in Ray, from 10 to 11. Bought a load of wood and read Spectator, till 12. Read Spectator from 12 to 1. Prayed in secret, and read the Bible, from 1 to 2. Read a chapter in Hebrew, borrowed an Arithmetic, and studied it till 3. Studied Arithmetic, from 3 to 4. Studied Arithmetic, from 4 to 5. Attended It has not been without considerable hesitation that the editor has determined to publish this account. But he thought on the whole, that it might be gratifying, and perhaps useful, to see a little of the course and subjects of study, and the manner of a college life, in the oldest college of our country, ninety years ago; and also to observe the diligence and piety of the subject of the memoir. It had been easy to omit the repetitions, but that would have destroyed the design of the whole; and nearly the same effect would have been produced by omitting a part. At the time to which the memoir refers, Cambridge college was conducted agreeably to the intentions of its founders -quantum mutatum ab illo! and the whole system of study had a special reference to preparation for the gospel ministry. For such preparation, we cannot but think the course of instruction in all our colleges, notwithstanding some unquestionable improvements, is now less favourable, than that which the subject of this memoir received. prayers in the Hall, and studied secret till 9. Read Spectator about Arithmetic, from 5 to 6. Studied Arithmetic, from 6 to 7. Attended a religious society meeting from 7 to 9. From 9 to 10, supped and smoked a pipe. After 10 prayed in secret, and went to bed a little before 11. Friday.-Waked at half past 6. Dressed me and made a fire till 7. Attended prayers in the Hall, and punished delinquents, till 8. [The author here says in a note-"I was monitor, to observe who were absent from publick prayers through the week-The punishments were small pecuniary fines."] Read 2 chapters and 4 psalms, and break fasted, till 9. Read Hymns of Dr. Watts, prayed in secret, and studied Arithmetic, till 10. From 10 to 11 studied Arithmetic. Studied Arithmetic, and looked over my Chum's Thesis, till 12. From 12 to 1 read Spectator. Read Spectator, dined and prayed in secret, till 2. After 2, spent half an hour idly, I know not where; then went into Mr. Winthrop's, to be instructed in Arithmetic, till half after S. Spent my time idly in the Buttery till 4. From 4 to 5 read Mr. Ray, and wrote in Common Place. At tended prayers in the Hall, and talked with Wm. in the Buttery, till 6. Read Mr. Ray, and wrote in Common Place, till 7. Prayed in secret, read the Greek Testament, and got a recitation in [illegible] till 8. Read Spectator from 8 till 9. Sat in company about a quarter of an hour, and then wrote out of Spectator into Common Place, till 10. Read Mr. Allein's Alarm, and talked with my Chum, till 11. Went to bed and lay and talked till almost 12. Saturday.-Waked a little after 4, lay and talked till a little after 5. Dressed me and made a fire till 6. Read a chapter and 4 psalms, and then Spectator, till 7. Attended prayers in the Hall, and read part of the 119th psalm in Hebrew, till 8. Breakfasted and prayed in half an hour, and then went into the Hebrew professor-came out from the Hebrew professor at half after 10. Read a paper in the Spectator, then sat and talked till half after 11-our discourse chiefly about declamations-then shaved me till 12. Read Spectator from 12 to 1. Dined and talked with my Chum about fixing the attention, till 2. Prayed in secret, went to the Buttery and tarried with Sir Bridges lately come home, till half after 3-[a graduate always acquired the title of Sir]. Went to my chamber and studied recitation. in Euclid, till 4. Read in Mr. Locke, talked with my Chum, and made logical arguments, till 5. Attended prayers in the Hall till 6. Read the Greek Testament and prayed in private, till 7. From 7 to half after 8 in society meeting. After meeting, sat and conversed till half after 9. Went to my chamber, prayed in secret, and read Mr. Allein's Alarm till 10. Went to bed soon after 10. Monday-Waked about 6, lay and talked Latin with my Chum till 7. Attended prayers in the Hall, and recited till 8. Prayed in secret, and breakfasted till 9. Read in the Bible, and wrote out of the Spectator into my Common Place, till 11. Read and wrote out of Mr. Ray, till 12. Went to borrow a book, and read Spectator till 1. Heard my Chum read Satires, dined, smoked a pipe, and talked with a friend that came to see me till 2. Prayed in secret, studied in the Bible, and read in the Greek Testament, till 3. Got my recitation, and read Ray till 4. Recited, read Ray, and wrote out of him till 5. Attended prayers in the Hall, went to Emerson's chamber, went down and walked round the college, went to Willman's chamber, then to my own, till 6. Got my recitation in Euclid, till 7. Still got recitation, talked with my Chum, and went to Willman's chamber |