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LETTER III.

TO W. H. S. S.

Bolney, Tuesday evening, Dec. 11.

ALAS! alas! my dear friend, my poor dear father is no more: he expired yesterday morning about a quarter before eleven of the clock. This to me, my dear friend, is one of the fevereft ftrokes that has ever befel me fince I have been in this world. But one thing at times affuages my grief, and in fome meafure compofes my mind, which is this: I am fure that he departed out of this world in peace.

Poor dear man, I was one that fat up with him during the last night of his abode with us. When in the agonies of death he looked and fimiled twice, and once he endeavoured to fpeak, and got out thefe words-How beautiful! Ifaiah lii. 7. But he then dropped fhort; his ftrength was too far gone to say more. He expired without a struggle; and to his last moments there was peace, compofure, and refignation, to be read in his very countenance. O, my dear friend, we have loft a most tender and affectionate father; and I think my poor fifter and I are left almoft alone in a finful world. The crofs of Chrift is not ceafed where

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power of God appears; and I know that there are none around thefe parts that will care for us, except the poor defpifed few that favour the Lord's righteous caufe. My aunts and my uncle are remarkably kind to us, and much lament the lofs of my venerable parent. It is impoffible for me to defcribe the grief and forrow of my poor fifter; difimayed and caft down fhe is with a witness, and quite inconfolable. She faid to me yesterday, "I "think I have loft the only friend I have had in "the world," adding, "There is another thing "which diftreffes me above meafure; which is, "that the Doctor, whom I fincerely love, feels his "mind at a distance from me; for he has not fo "much as mentioned my name in any one letter "fent to my father or you fince the beginning of "his illness." I hope my dear friend will favour us with his acquaintance, his correfpondence, and his fummer vifits, as long as it fhall please God to fpare your life. If you can find it in your heart, pray remember us in your petitions: For I am fure, if we were both deftitute of faith in Chrift, we could never bear up under this calamity which is now fallen upon us. It has been our most anxious defire, and earneft prayer to God, that our poor father might be spared a few years longer: but this request is not granted, this comfort is denied; but we hope ftill to share in your prayers.

Pray, fir, excufe my writing fo freely, for it is out of the abundance of my heart that my mouth fpeaketh

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fpeaketh. I fhould efteem it an unspeakable favour if you would drop us a few lines. Sometimes I thought that I would not write, for I could put down nothing in my paper but the grief and feelings of my heart: but I felt a fecret perfuafion that you would feel for us, and bear a part of our burthens. Excufe, my dear friend, what is amifs, and believe me to remain, with the highest esteem and regard,

Yours very affectionately,

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LETTER IV.

TO E. B

Cricklewood, Dec. 14, 1804.

My dear friend in the Lord Jefus Christ,

I HAVE now received what I fully expected, and what I knew before the coming of yours. For, when you fent me the firft account of your father's illness, I fpread the matter before the Lord in prayer, but felt a bar upon my heart, as I mentioned to you in my former letter. The Spirit of grace and fupplication maketh interceffion for us with groanings which cannot be uttered, and always according to the will of God (Rom. viii. 26, 27, but never against it.

It is now many years fince he and I fet out for Bolney (poft), and we left London about nine o'clock in the evening. On the road I was determined to pump his heart, and to draw out all that was in it.-Counsel in the heart of man is like deep water; but a man of understanding will draw it out. Prov. xx. 5. I begun with him, and foon the spring appeared to rife, and to flow out rapidly.—

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The words of a man's mouth are as deep waters, and the well-fpring of wisdom as a flowing brook. Prov.

xviii. 4. After fome time he ftopped. I then afked another queftion, fuch as agreed with the chain of difcourfe, and off he went again, filled with love and heavenly joy. It was quite dark, fo that he could not fee my countenance, nor did I speak one word all the time he went on ; but when he ftopped, then I mentioned to him how this and the other paffage of Scripture was fulfilled in this and in the other part of his experience; and then asked another question or two, agreeing with the end of the thread where he left off; and that fet him going again, till I got him to the time when the Lord turned his captivity; and then his mouth was filled with laughter. Pfal. cxxvi. 2.

He informed me of the foul-trouble which came gradually upon him; of his finking deeper and deeper under it; of fome friends of the Baptift perfuafion getting hold of him, and perfuading him of the goodness of his ftate, and how this lifted him up into vain and prefumptuous confidence, until fin got the mastery of him, and the contraction of fresh guilt pulled him down again into all his former horrors and terrors. About this time a book of mine fell into his hands, which pointed out his prefumptuous confidence, and helped forward his' calamity, till he came over to Lewes to hear me and after that his determination to fpeak

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