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The Contest.

deeply taught their inward and natural weakness, by losing the day. In their Captain's armour, in his strength, and by his sword, they must resist the devil; and so, to their joy, shall they find, that he will presently, fly away from them.

Nothing escapes the vigilance of this foe. He observes the particular constitutions of persons; and he makes his attacks upon all the weak and unguarded parts. He suits his devices to the frame of their dispositions; and, if they are ignorant of those devices, he will often make sad havoc and distress.

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He also knows, that the Christian hath traitors in his own bosom, once under full diabolical command, and now not absolutely suppressed and confined. These he bribes, entices, advises, corresponds with, and acts by; so that when the as sault is made from without, these suspicious inmates are not idle within, but join hand, head, and heart, as it were, to throw all open to the enemy.

Hence for these inbred foes, envy, pride, malice, lust, and all the confederacy of black and carnal principles, Satan finds out and proposes their several objects of desire.-These are soon converted into engines of war against the soul; and if the Christian's thoughts are not inspirited and guarded by the watchful firmness of faith, he may be unawares entangled again by his old master, who used, before he was a Christian, to take him captive at his will. What disgrace doth every defeat bring to his holy profession; and what misery, both before and after his recovery, to himself!

Satan hath also sly and subtle temptations, per

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verted from religion itself, by which he often assaults the mind. Sometimes he will raise snares from zeal, love, light, enlargement, and success in duties, by which to flatter the Christian into a high opinion of himself, and of his gifts and graces, in order to take him off his guard, or to unclothe him of his humility. When he can make a man proud, he makes him like himself; and when unclean, like a beast. At other times, he will inject the very poison and curse of his own diabolical spirit, by darting evil thoughts; despairing or blasphemous suggestions; vile conceptions of Christ, his word, his work, and all his salvation; preposterous, doubting, distracting, and presuming fancies; and an almost infinite variety of abominable suggestions; which, if the soul be unarmed and unguarded, will harass it to the utmost distress. He hath no pity; nor will he leave off for groans or wailing, agonies or tears. These rather encourage him, if there be nothing but these. The only thing he dreads is the Sword of the Spirit; and the only thing he cannot pierce is the armour of God. Therefore, when all this sad business is going forward, the Christian should not lie crying on the ground like one bereft of his senses, but should call upon his Captain for the armour and the sword, and with these should venture on boldly, trusting to the divine strength which is promised, against the foe. When he can do this, the conflict will soon be over: It is yielding, hearkening, reasoning, and parleying, which occasion all the mischief.

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I can talk of all this, my fellow-Christian, and I know it likewise to be right and true; but I am often beset, and have often been as much to seek

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as thou canst be, in this hard, yet glorious, service. To this moment I feel my own miserable weakness, when left, in the least degree, to myself. I have had my drubbings, my falls, my horrors, my conflicts, as well as thou: and I have been taught by them, though with much slowness, (I speak it with shame and sorrow) to fly to the right refuge, to lay hold of the right strength, to buckle on the right armour, and to fall on with the right sword. When I have done this with most alertness and with the most unreserved confidence in my divine Master, I have been most successful, and most easily have prevailed. When I have lingered, or dallied, or tampered with my foe, or else thought I could cope with him by himself, because he hath appeared under a mean disguise; then I have fainted and failed; then have I sunk, and been surely overthrown. My rebuffs have made me a little more wary of my own heart, as well as of my spiritual adversaries; and I find it the best way to begin speedily with prayer to HIM that heareth, that I may truly be ready for whatever nay come upon

me.

O how hard a thing it is, and how far beyond flesh and blood, and all the powers of reason, for a man truly to know the plague of his own heart, the deep apostasy of his nature, and all its subtle tendencies and operations!

While we are in the flesh, conflict with it must be more or less our daily exercise. And the use of it is, chiefly to keep our hearts from pride and sloth, to bring down the love of self in all its desires, and the love of sin in all its forms, to endear Christ to our souls in the holy ways of his salvation, to cause us to give up ourselves to him with

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less reserve, to wean us from earth and earthly comforts, and to fix our affections more firmly on heaven. If all this ensue, we shall then have happily disappointed the devil, and beaten him with his own weapons; and therefore shall in the end rejoice for every trial and conflict, which have led us on toward the attainment of that blessed state of mind, which is the true life and expectation of a Christian in this world. O that I may recollect these things for myself; while I am aiming to stir up the minds of others to the remembrance of them! Lord, thy strength is made perfect in weakness, and thy wisdom in folly; I call upon thee, therefore, and upon thee alone, to be the Guide, the Help, the Defender, and Deliverer of my soul! Thou art FAITHFUL, that hast promised; and here, and not upon my own natural reason or corrupted powers, do I rest my every hope of safety and salvation.

CHAP. XXXII,

ON ADVERSITY,

WE naturally love the world, and the things that are in the world, and this love, unsubdued, is the sole cause and ground of what are called mortifications and disappointments from the world. If the love of Christ prevailed more in us, it would not be in the power of outward things to give us so much pain as they do, or rather, if this love were perfect in us, we should be ashamed and sorry that these things should give us any pain at all.

Use of Adversity.

This is the truth; but how do we use it? Very often, in the time of trial, we make no other use, than to assent to it as a truth, and there leave it. Reflections of this kind are but orations to the winds, unless grace shall second and enforce them. The most trifling loss, as I have often observed in myself and others, is sufficient to unhinge and throw us out of order; if we have no stronger power than our own to keep us in it.

There is not a plant upon earth, how unsightly and bitter soever, but which hath an end for its being. God, likewise, hath not intended his providential works, however adverse or disagreeable to our sense, but for some just purpose and design. There is also a needs be, if we fall into divers temptations. And, if needful, then they are right and profitable, and will appear to be so at the last.

We have many evil humours, that require correction; and God sends adversity, as a medicine, to heal some disorder in the soul. When it comes with grace into the spirit of a Christian, how doth it soften and blunt his rough and acid dispositions, how reform and lower his swelling and confident frames, how chasten and subdue his restless and impatient tempers; while the better part, his renewed mind, gathers strength, and holiness, and resignation, and hope? We shall, indeed, thank God heartily for all our adversities, by and by; and, though they are not to be counted as any part of our inheritance, we shall rejoice eternally, that they were graciously made a part of the means for bringing us to it. Lazarus himself can now rejoice over all his sores, and adore the Lord for the worst of them.

The apostle Paul was a chosen vessel, and

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