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child of God.' I had such a sense of the pardoning love of God, of my acceptance in Christ the beloved, and of my adoption through the Spirit, that I could not help speaking aloud amongst the people, I know that my Redeemer liveth.'" And in so solemn and affectionate a manner did she commend her Christian friends to God, and take leave of them, as if she had been certain that her dissolution was near at hand. This appears to have been graciously designed by God, to strengthen her for a further, and yet more trying conflict of soul with the great adversary. He did all in his power to distress her hope, and shake her confidence in God. Scarcely ever before had she experienced such exercise of spirit, which continued for some hours; in which she wrestled earnestly with God, and called upon her Christian friends to wrestle for her. But, at length, the Lord graciously rebuked the adversary, broke in upon her mind with light, filled her soul with peace, and enabled her to triumph in the full assurance of hope. After this time, though she was sometimes sharply exercised with pain and distress in her outward frame, her mind was quite calm, and comfortably staid upon God.

On Tuesday morning, (Feb. 22, 1803,) having had a very painful and restless night, she was extremely weak in body, but in a most sweetly enlarged frame of soul, rejoicing in a sense of God's presence with her, and in the victory which he had given her over the enemies of her peace. She said: "Blessed be God, I have peace: He is mine, and I am his. Victory, victory, through the blood of the Lamb! He hath set my soul at liberty." A little afterwards she added: "I have had wonderful manifestations of God to my soul, far beyond many; but I have always been afraid of saying too much, rather than too little; wishing rather that my life and conversation should witness to the truth of my profession. So far as I know my own heart, it has

been my desire and study to adorn the doctrine of God my Saviour in all things. But I would have no encomiums passed on me. I am a sinner, saved freely by grace: grace, Divine grace, is worthy to have all the glory."-" Some people," she said, "I have heard speak much of our being faithful to the grace of God, as if they rested much on their own faithfulness: I never could bear this. It is God's faithfulness to his own word of promise, that is my only security for salvation." Then, adverting to the Gospel which she had professed, and the foundation of her hope towards God, as laid in the atoning blood and righteousness of Jesus Christ, she raised herself in a solemn attitude, and with most striking emphasis delivered, in the following language, her dying testimony to the truth as it is in Jesus. here declare it before you, that I have looked on the right hand and on the left, I have cast my eyes before and behind, to see if there was any possible way of salvation, but by the Son of God; and I am fully satisfied there is not: no, none on earth, nor all the angels in heaven, could have wrought out salvation for such a sinner: none but the Son of God himself, taking our nature upon him, and doing all that the holy law required, could have procured pardon for me a sinner. He has wrought out salvation for me, and I know that I shall enjoy it for ever."

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The same morning, when her friend Mr. Merrill called on her, she said to him: "I have had many sweet visits from God with you; and we shall rejoice together above. Holy, holy, holy Lord God, how shall I praise thee for what thou hast done for us! Eternity will be too short to speak his praise. I am not able to speak, but God knows we are friends. We love each other; and we shall part no more."

Tuesday night she passed with great restlessness and pain, which held her for many hours, being

evidently the pangs of approaching dissolution; but through all, she was kept from discovering the least impatience, and at every interval was lifting up her soul to God, that he would be gracious to her, and grant her a sweet release; yet saying, "The Lord's time is best; the Lord's will be done in us." By the motions of her lips and eyes, as well as by the words she uttered occasionally, it appeared that she was continually conversing with God, and commending her departing spirit into His hands who had. redeemed her. Several times she repeated with great sensibility these words: "When will his chariot wheels advance, to call his exiled home? Sweet Jesus, come quickly, and set my soul at rest!"

Wednesday morning, (Feb. 23,) being somewhat revived, she said, "I have been exceeding low for some time, that I could not speak much; but, glory be to God, Jesus is mine, and I am his, and that's enough for me." The Rev. Mr. S. calling upon her, she was enabled to express with great clearness, and in a very striking manner, her full persuasion of the certainty of the Gospel hope, and the comfortable assurance she had, that in a little while she should join the blessed and glorious throne above, in singing the praises of God and the Lamb for ever. The rest of the day she was much exercised with pain of body; but her soul was almost continually wrestling with God in prayer. About midnight, she fell asleep in Jesus, with these words, which were the last that could be understood: " Glory be to thee, my God: peace thou givest me!"

MRS. MARTHA FLIGHT.

MRS. M. FLIGHT was born at Abingdon, in Berkshire, in the year of our Lord 1725. Her maiden name was Tomkins. Her parents and all her family were respectable as to their worldly circumstances, and eminent for their religious characters. She was left an orphan while young, and was the eldest of five children, one of whom died in childhood, and all the rest before her, and, there is reason to believe, in the faith and hope of the Gospel.

She became truly pious, and made conscience of the duties of the closet in her childhood. She has been often heard to say, with gratitude to God, that she could not recollect the time when her mind was destitute of serious impressions. Her religious character was formed, through grace, partly under the instructions of her parents, and the ministry of the word at Abingdon; partly under the tuition of two eminently godly women, who kept a boarding-school at Hackney, under whose care she was placed at the age of fourteen or fifteen; and partly under the ministry of the late venerable Dr. King, whose memory she highly respected, and would often repeat the substance of his sermons which she had heard with pleasure and profit forty or fifty years before. She often admired and adored the disposing hand of Divine Providence, which, after she had lost her parents, placed her in a school, where a chief object of education was the promotion of the knowledge and fear of God; where religious principles made a part of every week's exercise, and where she was brought under that ministry of the word, by which the serious impressions made in her childhood were revived and confirmed.

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Respecting her general Christian deportment through life, it may be proper to observe a few things. She was regular and serious in waiting upon God in all public ordinances, never absenting herself except through necessity, and always making conscience of being in her pew a sufficient time to compose her thoughts before worship began. She often expressed a deep concern when she had observed members of the church absent without cause, at the stated seasons of worship, and had seen any come in after worship was begun; both which she considered as manifesting great want of love to the regular ordinances of the church, and neglect of the authority of Christ, as grievous to the minds of his ministers and steady disciples, and tending even to the dissolution of regular churches. These things are mentioned as forming one prominent trait in sher character, and which deeply affected her mind during some of the last years of her life.

She was not less distinguished by her religious observance of the Sabbath in her own house. Such was her concern for the religious improvement of her servants, that she generally arranged her family affairs so as to give them an opportunity of attending public worship both morning and afternoon; but, having done this, she would not suffer them to attend evening lectures, but called them together, and asked them questions concerning what they had heard in the course of the day; sometimes catechised them, heard them read a portion of Scripture, generally read a sermon to them herself, and conversed freely with them about the worth of their souls, warning, exhorting, and admonishing them as occasion required. And, for the encouragement of the heads of families, we must not omit to mention the happy effects that followed these religious exercises. They proved instrumental, in the course of her life, of the conversion of several who resided under her roof, and were comfortable and edifying to others,

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