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heavenly Father disapproves? O let me know my secret faults; they are not hid from thee, though my conscience brings them not to my remembrance."

"Feb. 9, 1794. After this retrospect, which I have made with a sincere desire of knowing the present state of my soul, and of calling to mind the mercies of the past week, I will address my God in humble prayer. Merciful Father! God of all grace and goodness, I bow my soul before thee, in an humble sense of my own unworthiness and thine infinite perfection. O Lord, I confess myself a sinner. Alas! my sins and offences are innumerable, and I am not worthy to address thy Divine Majesty but through the mediation of my blessed Redeemer, thy only Son Jesus Christ: for his sake, I beseech thee pardon all my past offences, and receive me into favour. O Lord, with a grateful heart I offer thee my humble thanksgivings for all the mercies of the week past; particularly for the peace and tranquillity which thou hast graciously afforded me, and for the strength which has been granted me for the pursuit of my labours. I thank thee, O God, for the success thou hast graciously given to my plan for the benefit of the poor. O vouchsafe to continue and increase it, and give me the heart to make a proper use of what thy bountiful hand bestows. Let me not be vain and conceited; let me not be puffed up with the applauses of men. Thy Divine approbation ought to be my first object; thy glory, my principal aim."

"July 13. Welcome sweet hours of retirement, devoted to pious meditation! welcome sweet hours of retirement, in which I can commune with my own heart, and be still; in which I can commune with my God and Saviour, and anticipate in some degree the enjoyments of heaven! O Almighty Father, dearly do I love thy law; highly do I prize thy word; most earnestly do I desire to do thy holy will on earth. Most fervently do I hope to find

admittance to thy glorious presence in heaven, when I quit this mortal state. Yet, alas! holy Father, how unworthy am I of the honour and blessedness to which I aspire! I am conscious, O Lord God, of my manifold sins and infirmities. I know that I am not worthy of the least of all thy mercies; that I have in numberless instances offended against thy holy laws. But I have an all-powerful Intercessor with thee, on whose merits alone my hopes of pardon and acceptance are fixed. Holy Father, vouchsafe to pardon me for my dear Redeemer's sake! O Divine Lord, Son of the Father, Lamb of God, that takest away the sins of the world, receive the prayer which I now offer unto thee as the Mediator between God and mankind. Dear and beloved Saviour, have compassion upon me; plead for me; cover me with the robe of thy righte

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"March 17, 1797. I have read part of Bishop Beveridge's Resolutions, and I agree with him in resolving to make it my chief business here on earth, to prepare for my eternal state, and to walk circumspectly in those blessed paths of faith and obedience which God himself has graciously pointed out as leading to his heavenly kingdom. I have long since chosen the land of Canaan, the kingdom of Christ, as the lot of my inheritance, the only seat of bliss and glory for my soul to rest and dwell in to all eternity. O most gracious God, who that has read and reflected upon the glories revealed in thy written word, can make any other choice? Can any one deliberately prefer earth to heaven? Can any one deliberately refuse everlasting life and happiness for the sake of the transitory pleasures of this mortal state? I am truly thankful to thy Divine goodness, that thou hast formed me what I am, a mortal being, and placed me where I am, on this earth, which is so wisely adapted to the wants of such creatures as mankind, through which they must pass as proba

tioners for eternal happiness. But I will not cling to this earth; I will not regard it as my abiding place. No, most holy, most glorious God, I will strive, by using the means of grace which thou hast graciously afforded to me and my fellow-mortals, to secure the inheritance thy goodness has provided for me in a better world. I know that without holiness I must never enter that blessed place; and I feel that I am a sinner unworthy, from my manifold offences, to gain admittance there. But my Redeemer has made atonement for my sins; and thou, O God, hast promised to pardon all who shall truly repent, and for his sake to receive them to thyself as dear children,"

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LADY GLENORCHY.

WILHELMINA MAXWELL, Viscountess Glenorchy, was the younger of two daughters left by Dr. William Maxwell, of Preston, a gentleman of high respectability and large fortune in Galloway, North Britain; and was born at Preston, Sept. 2, 1741. Dr. Maxwell died four months before the birth of his youngest daughter; and his widow, (afterwards Lady Alva,) wishing to perpetuate the name of a husband so dear, called the fatherless child, Wilhelmina. The eldest daughter was married at Edinburgh, in April 1761, to William Earl of Sutherland: the youngest, who is the subject of these memoirs, was married at London, some months afterwards, to John Lord Viscount Glenorchy, only son of the Earl of Breadalbane.

Lady Glenorchy was only in her twentieth year, when, dazzled with the fascinations of grandeur, she complied with the wishes of her friends, who had pushed on this splendid match. With fine talents, which had been improved by a very liberal and expensive education, she combined an agreeable person, a temper vivacious and peculiarly formed for hilarity, a considerable share of wit and pleasantry, and every accomplishment which could render her an object of admiration in the circles of fashion. She was esteemed one of the first amateur musicians of the day, and had a charming voice. The year after her marriage, she accompanied Lord Glenorchy in a tour through France and Italy, where they spent about two years. On their return, she became involved in all the dissipation of high life, till her health began to suffer, and seasons of indisposition brought leisure for solemn reflections. Early in

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