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it. I can fay without diffimulation, after "the bleffed Pfalmift, that I hate every "falfe way. I dare no more commit fin fin fecret, than if I were in the fight of the whole world. The deformity of it appears to my mind loathfome and abominable, and the remaining moral infir"mities of my foul, which no mortal but

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myfelf can know, are my greatest trouble. I can fay, my heart is determined to the "love of God, and that I choose the light of "his countenance above all things; that I "love the worship of God as the establish'd

method of maintaining fellowship with "him; that it is habitually my aim to "ferve the true ends of religious worship; "and tho' I often find reason to complain "of myfelf, yet I can fay, I am never easy "or fatisfied with that fervice, in which I "do not find my foul raised to a frame "fome way fuitable to it, and to some fer"vor of affection. And as charity is a "character of the true difciples of Chrift " often spoken of in fcripture, and largely "infifted on by our Saviour, I think, I

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can truly fay, that the image and like"nefs of God wherever it is found, with"out regard to party, condition in the world,

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"world, or any other confideration, is the "object of my fincere affection; my heart "would be glad to do a good office to à

disciple in the name of a difciple, and to

"do good, as I have opportunity, to all "mankind. What then upon the whole "fhall I conclude? That, according to the "gofpel declarations, I am in a state of "favour with God? Yes, I will, and must

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do it. Surely thefe are the genuine cha«racters of it, according to the fcriptures. ["Therefore condemning myself for mani“fold past offences, and adoring the rich "mercy of God, I will fay to my foul,

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that I am the object of his approbation "and love." Concluding all with praises and thanksgiving in moft affectionate strains, and with refolutions of conducting his life for the future fo as to please and honour God particularly with refpect to his business as a minifter, of the dignity and importance of which he expreffes a high fenfe, and great pleasure in it, with earnest defires that he may, by the affistances of God's holy fpirit, be enabled to answer the true ends of that honourable station.

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IT will, I am perfuaded, be agreeable to many readers, to have fome farther ac count of this record of his life, and his progrefs in cultivating good affections, and correcting whatsoever appeared amifs. But the defign of this preface does not admit of following him through the particulars of this kind, which would fwell it to a very great bulk. All that can be expected, is, a general view of the defigns which he purfued, and his great application to ferve them; to which it will not be improper to fubjoin some few paffages which shall be faithfully transcribed, that the reader may be able to form a juft idea of his spirit. There are indeed very many which there is no occafion to infert here, for they contain his reasonings with himself upon religious fubjects, and these are to be found in his fermons, where they are fet in the beft: light.

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THE difcipline of the heart, is the great business which he appears in the whole of this diary to have purfued. His inquiries upon particular occafions into his own infirmities and defects, are very frequent. He relates the workings of his paffions,

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thofe especially, which he apprehended had the afcendant in his natural complexion and temper, and by which he was in the greateft danger of being betrayed into errors in, conduct, with much exactness, and many useful reflections upon them; with great care applying himself to find out the deceitfulness of fin, and to discover that falfe colouring of principles and affections, which frequently imposes upon the unthinking and partial, and under the cover of which, bad dispositions and actions often shelter themfelves, indeed are recommended as virtuous. And as he was at pains to fortify himself by all proper means, against whatsoever might endanger that exact integrity which was the fubject of his conftant attention and care, fo where he was conscious of having failed in any inftance, he does particularly record it, and his exercife of repentance for it. And where he had acted his part happily, and approved himself to his own heart, this is likewife fet down, with proper reflections for his encouragement and establishment in virtue. Never fure was there. a scene where the various workings of the human heart, and the proper discipline of it, are more fully and affectingly display'd.

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He likewife freqently compares the prefent ftate of his mind, with what it was in times paft, carefully observing, whether he made advances in religion and virtue, or was falling beneath former attainments; and, as he was for fome years labouring under frequent depreffion of fpirit, tho' concealed from the world, his conflicts with imagination, while it diftreffed him, and his reafonings with himself for his fupport and encouragement, are all fet forth very particu larly.

BUT there is nothing he attended to with greater exactness, than the manner and temper in which he performed the public services of religion. The examining of these appears to have been part of his business every fabbath-evening; and in the reflections made upon fuch occafions, the fimplicity of his fpirit in pursuing the true ends of religion and the miniftry, and his ardent zeal, do most affectingly appear. displeasure with himself,

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