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4 it. I can say without diffimulation, after 4 the blessed Pfalmift, that 1 bate every "falfe way.

I dare no more commit fin u in secret, than if I were in the fight of " the whole world. The deformity of it

appears to my mind loathsome and abo" minable, and the remaining moral infir:“ mities of my soul, which no mortal but “ myself.can know, are my greatest trouble. '? I can fay, my heart is determined to the ". love of God, and that I choose the light of « his countenance above all things; that I « love the worship of God as the establish'd * method of maintaining fellowship with “ him ; that it is habitually my aim to « ferve the true ends of religious worship; " and tho' I often find reason to complain « of myself, yet I can say, I am never easy

or satisfied with that service, in which I "I do not find my soul raised to a frame

suitable to it, and to some fervor of affection.

And as charity is a < character of the true disciples of Christ " often spoken of in scripture, and largely " insisted on by our Saviour, I think, I

can truly say, that the image and likee ness of God wherever it is found, without regard to party, condition in the

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:6 world, or any other confideration, is the

object of my fincere affection ; my heart « would be glad to do a good office to a « disciple in the name of a difciple, and to $ do good, as I have opportunity, to all “ mankind. What then upon the whole « shall I conclude? That, according to the s“ gospel declarations, I am in a state of * favour with God? Yes, I will, and must

do it. Surely thefe are the genuine cha'« racters of it, according to the scriptures: L" Therefore condemning myself for mani{ fold paft offences, and adoring the rich '" mercy of God, I will say to my foul, " that I am the object of his approbation « and love." Concluding all with praises and thanksgiving in moft affectionate strains, and with resolutions of conducting his life for the future so as to please and honour God : particularly with refpect to his business as a minister, of the dignity and importance of which he expresses a high senfe, and great pleasure in it, with earnest desires that he may, by the assistances of God's holy spirit, be enabled to answer the true ends of that honourable station.

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It will, I am persuaded, be agreeable to many readers, to have some farther account of this record of his life, and his progress in cultivating good affections, and correcting whatsoever appeared amiss. But the design of this preface does not admit of following him through the particulars of this kind, which would swell it to a very

All that can be expected, is, a general view of the designs which he pursued, and his great application to serve them; to which it will not be improper to subjoin some few passages which shall be faithfully transcribed, that the reader may be able to form a just. idea of his spirit. There are indeed very many which there is no occasion to insert here, for they contain his reasonings with himself upon religious subjects, and these are to be found in his fermons, where they are set in the best light.

The discipline of the heart, is the great business which he appears in the whole of this diary to have pursued. His inquiries upon particular occafions into his own infirmities and defects, are very frequent. He relates the workings of his passions,

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those especially, which he apprehended had the ascendant in his natural.complexion and temper, and by which he was in the greatest danger of being betrayed into errors in, conduct, with much exactness, and many useful reflections upon them; with great care applying himself to find out the deceitfulnefs of fin, and to discover that false colouring of principles and affections, which frequently imposes upon the unthinking and partial, and under the cover of which, bad dispositions and actions often shelter themselves, indeed are recommended as virtuous. And as he was at pains to fortify himself by all proper means, against whatsoever might endanger that exact integrity which was the subject of his constant attention and care, so where he was conscious of having failed in any instance, he does particularly record it, and his exercise of repentance for it. And where he had acted his

part happily, and approved himself to his own heart, this is likewise fet down, with proper reo, flections for his encouragement and establishment in virtue. Never sure was there. a scene where the various workings of the human heart, and the proper discipline of it, are more fully and affectingly display'd.

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He'likewise freqently compares the present state of his mind, with what it was in times past, carefully observing, whether he made advances in religion and virtue, or was falling beneath former attainments; and, as he was for some years labouring under frequent depression of spirit, tho' concealed from the world, his conflicts with imagination, while it distressed him, and his reasonings with himself for his fupport and encouragement, are all set forth very particum larly.

But there is nothing he attended to with greater exactness, than the manner and temper in which he performed the public services of religion. The exainining of these appears to have been part of his business every fabbath-evening; and in the reflections made upon such occasions, the simplicity of his spirit in pursuing the true ends of religion and the ministry, and his ardent zeal, do most affectingly appear. He expresses great displeasure with himself, when vain or unreasonable thoughts had insinuated themselves so, as to lefsen or interrupt his attention to divine things ; or when he had not those feelings of devout affection, and of

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